Early in the year I completed my vision board for the 2013, something I do every January. My life looked so bleak at that time, I had no idea how any of my vision could come to fruition but I know if you don’t put it out there nothing will happen.
One of my dearest wishes was that Hay House might recognise my book and last week I was delighted to receive a call from Leon, CEO of Hay House, Sydney. He was quite effusive about the book and very encouraging. He told me that they were going to use it in a trial publicity campaign. I had already spoken to a national USA radio program and had a confirmation that the book would be showcased at the international book fair in Toronto.
This seemed like a miracle as all of the months I was ill I had done very little promotion, however, a publicity campaign arranged by Balboa last year, and postponed until this year, has proven to be very successful. Now it is up to me to follow through.
I thought I had better read the book again as I wasn’t sure it was still relevant to me after the challenging experiences of the past year. I was relieved to find that it was still extremely relevant and although I had temporarily slipped back into victim hood, using some of the distinctions mentioned in the book, I was forging back stronger than ever.
On page 138 I deal with declarations and as I reread this section it suddenly struck me how I was letting myself get bogged down with situations I could not control. I made a decision to declare the past complete in regards to those who have their own perceptions and attitudes that I cannot change. Last year was a comedy of errors steeped in grief and although there was never any malicious or manipulative intent on my part, I can see how others may have, and still do, read situations that I mishandled in my grief. I have no negativity towards those who misread my actions, in fact I feel a great deal of compassion, whilst not condoning some behaviors, including my own.
It has been a relief to close the door on the things I cannot change and that were holding back my desire to move forward. I have learned so much and know that I have emerged stronger and more productive than ever. The A A prayer is so relevant to us all and I whisper it to myself quite often:
“God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.”